Where I Came From But No Longer Exist
15 Poems of Discovery
By Gary Bell
Smashwords Edition Copyright 2010 by Gary Bell.
All rights reserved.
Book layout and design by Gary Bell.
Edited by Paivi Pittman and Danielle Toone.
Cover art by Matt Bodett. All rights reserved. http://www.mattbodett.com
For Elizabeth Obregon,
My muse before I knew I was a poet.
Table of Contents
14
Fear is powerful.
It drowns our desires,
cloaks our eyes,
strangles our every will.
Stunting our growth
and passion withheld,
lowering us
to stand uncertain,
giving in,
not breathing.
We,
ourselves,
keep it
but deny this;
Fear
of being cared for,
Fear
of being stronger
than fear
itself.
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Smell of Mom's food
cooking
provokes
my id,
Scents are much of
taste
what causes
Heaviness,
I'm exhausted,
and still wanting
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plasma hits
goose bump
linoleum
this time
no one
looks around
because
shit is,
life is,
disconnected is,
last return
is
on
the
slippery
tile
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